It’s five (not only in the morning)

Già, sono ormai cinque. Il tuo compleanno, lo festeggeremo alla grande, domani: una brioche con crema doppia tutta per te.

E ti guardo nel frattempo da lontano mentre tu rimani placido ad osservare il mondo e ti basta quello.

Ho scelto questa foto perché meglio di qualunque altra ti rappresenta. Sei vicino alla porta, distaccato, girato ma vicino.

Sei un po’ egoista ma sai che dietro di te, io ti osservo e tu sei sicuro così. Può succedere di tutto, tu non hai paura. Anzi, assieme affrontiamo le paure.

Quanto ho imparato da te! Se fossi rimasto distaccato anch’io in quelle mille situazioni anziché infilarmi al centro e perdermi nelle maglie della rete! Quanti problemi in meno! Quanta serenità avrei avuto, mi sarei risparmiato mille arrabbiature.

Tu sei così: lieve, spensierato, sereno, mai spaventato, mai arrabbiato. Infastidito, incazzoso, ribelle ma giusto per quei due metri lontano da me.

E quando volevi qualcosa, a qualsiasi ora del giorno o della notte, ti sentivi in diritto di venire da me e pretendere che io esaudissi i tuoi desideri.

Per le pisciatine notturne delle una, delle tre e delle sei a Livigno, salivi sul letto e mi saltavi sulla panza, zampettandomi la faccia, per poi trovarti placidamente addormentato alle otto del mattino senza un minimo desiderio di uscire.

Le proteste con fare immusonito, le zampe bloccate in avanti, quando non volevi fare un passo in più e io dovevo aspettare che le tue paturnie passassero.

O quando correvi folle perché avevi visto qualche fantasma e ti impuntavi di salire proprio su quella pianta o infilarti dentro al minuscolo buco dietro il sasso. Non calcolavi la differenza di stazza tra me e te.

Le tue lagnanze puntuali con vigorosi miagolii erano sincrone alle uscite degli autogrill, dove, pare, ti beavi ad annusare gli scarichi di tir parcheggiati e a snasare tutte le aiuole.

Mi guardavi con fare minaccioso se lasciavo che qualche bambino ti accarezzasse e ti tirasse i baffi. Non dicevi niente, ma il tuo sguardo mi prometteva una vendetta puntuale e dolorosissima proprio quando meno me lo sarei aspettato.

E ti sei sempre fidato di me, nonostante i miei mille tradimenti, le mie infedeltà, le mie paturnie. Quando sei stato male, con quelle poche forze che ti rimanevano, ti sei portato nell’auto e ti sei accucciato sotto il sedile. Come per dirmi “ti-concedo-di-andare-dove-vuoi-ma-fammi-guarire”.

Ormai per noi il mondo non sarà troppo grande per scoprirlo assieme anche se mi odi quando uso un mezzo potentissimo al quale devi soccombere, l’aereo. Lo sai che non posso portarti con me.

E così sono cinque per me, per te, per noi. Non so come sarebbe stata la tua vita senza di me, ma so che la mia senza di te sarebbe stata molto peggiore, e lo so che è un errore scrivere molto peggiore, ma chi se ne frega.

Ti amo e per questi tuoi cinque anni ti regalerò un passaporto nuovissimo, tutto per te, così sconfineremo un po’ di più e saremo più internazionali.

Con tutto il mio amore…


Meat Loaf -I’d do anything for love

And I would do anything for love,
I’d run right into hell and back
I would do anything for love,
I’ll never lie to you and that’s a factBut I’ll never forget the way you feel right now,
Oh no, no way.
And I would do anything for love,
But I won’t do that
No I won’t do thatAnything for love
Oh I would do anything for love,
I would do anything for love
But I won’t do that
No I won’t do thatAnd some days, it don’t come easy
And some days it don’t come hard
Some days it don’t come at all
And these are the days that never end
And some nights you’re breathing fire
And some nights you’re carved in ice
Some nights you’re like nothing I’ve ever seen before
Or will againAnd maybe I’m crazy
Oh it’s crazy and it’s true
I know you can save me
No one else can save me now but youAs long as the planets are turning
As long as the stars are burning
As long as your dreams are coming true
You better believe itThat I would do anything for love
I’ll be there till the final act
And I would do anything for love!
And I’ll take the vow and seal a pact
But I’ll never forgive myself if we don’t go all the way
Tonight
And I would do anything for love
Oh I would do anything for love
Oh I would do anything for love
But I won’t do that
No I wont do thatI would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just won’t do that
I would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just won’t do that
I would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just won’t do thatAnd somedays I pray for silence
And somedays I pray for soul
Somedays I just pray to the God of Sex and Drums and Rock ‘N Roll.And some nights I lose the feeling
And some nights I lose control
Some nights I just lose it all when I watch you dance and the thunder rollsAnd maybe I’m lonely
That’s all I’m qualified to be
There’s just one and only
The one and only promise I can keepAs long as the wheels are turning
As long as the fires burning
As long as your prayers are coming true
You better believe itThat I would do anything for love
And you know it’s true and that’s a fact
And I would do anything for love
And there’ll never be no turning backBut I’ll never do it better then I do it with you
So long
So long
And I would do anything for love
Oh I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won’t do that
No, no, no I won’t do…I would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just wont do thatI would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just wont do thatI would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just wont do thatI would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just wont do thatI would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just wont do thatI would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just wont do thatI would do anything for love
Anything you’ve been dreaming of
But I just wont do thatBut I’ll never stop dreaming of you every night of my life
No way
And I would do anything for love
Oh I would do anything for love
Oh I would do anything for love
But I won’t do that
No I won’t do thatWill you raise me up?
Will you help me down?
Will you get me right out of this Godforsaken town?
Will you make it all a little less cold?I can do that!
Oh I can do that!Will you hold me sacred?
Will you hold me tight?
Can you colorize my life I’m so sick of black and white?
Can you make it all a little less old?I can do that
Oh oh now i can do thatWill you make me some magic with your own two hands?
Can you build an emerald city with these grains of sand?
Can you give me something I can take home?Now I can do that
Oh now I can do thatWill you cater to every fantasy I got?
Will you hose me down with holy water, if I get too hot! (HOT)?
Will you take me places I’ve never known?Now I can do that
Oh, oh now I can do that!After a while to forget everything
It was a brief interlude and a midsummer night’s fling
And you’ll see that its time to move onI won’t do that
I won’t do thatI know the territory
I’ve been around
It’ll all turn to dust
And we’ll all fall down
And sooner or later you’ll be screwing aroundI won’t do that!
No, I won’t do that!Anything for love
Oh I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won’t do that
No I won’t do that


And I would do anything for love,I’d run right into hell and backI would do anything for love,I’ll never lie to you and that’s a factBut I’ll never forget the way you feel right now,Oh no, no way.And I would do anything for love,But I won’t do thatNo I won’t do thatAnything for loveOh I would do anything for love,I would do anything for loveBut I won’t do thatNo I won’t do thatAnd some days, it don’t come easyAnd some days it don’t come hardSome days it don’t come at allAnd these are the days that never endAnd some nights you’re breathing fireAnd some nights you’re carved in iceSome nights you’re like nothing I’ve ever seen beforeOr will againAnd maybe I’m crazyOh it’s crazy and it’s trueI know you can save meNo one else can save me now but youAs long as the planets are turningAs long as the stars are burningAs long as your dreams are coming trueYou better believe itThat I would do anything for loveI’ll be there till the final actAnd I would do anything for love!And I’ll take the vow and seal a pactBut I’ll never forgive myself if we don’t go all the wayTonightAnd I would do anything for loveOh I would do anything for loveOh I would do anything for loveBut I won’t do thatNo I wont do thatI would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just won’t do thatI would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just won’t do thatI would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just won’t do thatAnd somedays I pray for silenceAnd somedays I pray for soulSomedays I just pray to the God of Sex and Drums and Rock ‘N Roll.And some nights I lose the feelingAnd some nights I lose controlSome nights I just lose it all when I watch you dance and the thunder rollsAnd maybe I’m lonelyThat’s all I’m qualified to beThere’s just one and onlyThe one and only promise I can keepAs long as the wheels are turningAs long as the fires burningAs long as your prayers are coming trueYou better believe itThat I would do anything for loveAnd you know it’s true and that’s a factAnd I would do anything for loveAnd there’ll never be no turning backBut I’ll never do it better then I do it with youSo longSo longAnd I would do anything for loveOh I would do anything for loveI would do anything for loveBut I won’t do thatNo, no, no I won’t do…I would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just wont do thatI would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just wont do thatI would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just wont do thatI would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just wont do thatI would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just wont do thatI would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just wont do thatI would do anything for loveAnything you’ve been dreaming ofBut I just wont do thatBut I’ll never stop dreaming of you every night of my lifeNo wayAnd I would do anything for loveOh I would do anything for loveOh I would do anything for loveBut I won’t do thatNo I won’t do thatWill you raise me up?Will you help me down?Will you get me right out of this Godforsaken town?Will you make it all a little less cold?I can do that!Oh I can do that!Will you hold me sacred?Will you hold me tight?Can you colorize my life I’m so sick of black and white?Can you make it all a little less old?I can do thatOh oh now i can do thatWill you make me some magic with your own two hands?Can you build an emerald city with these grains of sand?Can you give me something I can take home?Now I can do thatOh now I can do thatWill you cater to every fantasy I got?Will you hose me down with holy water, if I get too hot! (HOT)?Will you take me places I’ve never known?Now I can do thatOh, oh now I can do that!After a while to forget everythingIt was a brief interlude and a midsummer night’s flingAnd you’ll see that its time to move onI won’t do thatI won’t do thatI know the territoryI’ve been aroundIt’ll all turn to dustAnd we’ll all fall downAnd sooner or later you’ll be screwing aroundI won’t do that!No, I won’t do that!Anything for loveOh I would do anything for loveI would do anything for loveBut I won’t do thatNo I won’t do that

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